Bela

Grieving for our pets is a special kind of pain - while society in general don't care much for it and associate it with weakness and self-indulgence, the fact is that we as a species are connected to our pets (the point could be made vice versa as well) and for thousands of years there is a link between us that to my knowledge no other species on this planet create with other creatures. Only humans select certain animals as their pets, share their home with them and grieve after they die. I have never heard of donkey or a geese having a pet - only humans do it. And its with a heavy heart that I have to write here about the passing of sweet Bela. 

Bela was not officially my dog - she belonged to my first neighbour who decided to adopt her one winter when I was between the ships on vacation and enjoying my deserved rest after non stop 6 months work. Like everything else that young couples do, it was a spontaneous decision made in a heat of the moment but not very well planned - they both worked long hours and the little fluffy white puppy was crying alone in a empty house. So I suggested, why don't you leave her with me, I am here just across the road and she will be in a warm house + will have somebody to look after her. So the puppy Bela spent days with me in a warm kitchen and would go back to their owners in the evenings. I clearly recall her learning how to use sandbox for wc and how excited she was when she managed to jump on the chair for the first time. 

In the beginning she was too small to even made it trough the few steps in front of the house. The very first time she saw another dog, she was so scared that she run back to the house to hide behind me. And it was very sweet how she wold always run behind me when she felt threatened. Once we were walking somewhere trough the forrest and she was barking at the other dogs in the distance but once they decided to respond to her challenge, she hid behind me. The official master of the house was actually a bossy cat who surely had to adopt to a fast-growing puppy who was completely harmless but eventually grew much bigger. 

 

For the longest time Bela was just a sweet, playful puppy and was roaming free around our houses, as animals do in the countryside - occasionally this was dangerous for cats who would get killed by a car but dogs were doing just fine. I always thought she had a wonderful life, living completely free without any fences or barricades - I recall waiting for the local bakery bus and watching her joyfully jumping trough the tall grass in the fields. Yes, this freedom also had a price - when her periods started, she was not protected from local dogs and we had to quickly sterilise her (traumatic experience for all involved, I still feel so guilty about bring her to a vet) but that was really the only way we could keep her from million dogs attacking her. 

As the years passed, I was really always looking forward to go on vacation and to return to the little sleepy village, where Bela was now a part of the story. I had always wondered would she recognise me and brought her lots of goodies and treats (bought specially for her in other countries) - naturally she would always recognise me and we would have a wonderful time together, she was just a lovely, sweet natured dog. When babies came along, her owners naturally shifted their priorities and perhaps she was not pampered as before but that is probably reality of many dogs elsewhere. Seriously, my main reason to go back there for eventual vacation was to see Bela again, for me she was a connection with the place much more than anything else - to find out that she has gone was really sad news and I don't think that I will ever forget her. 

The one particular memory I have about Bela is the bright moment I forever keep in my heart. It was a beautifully quiet and peaceful afternoon, one of those lazy summer afternoons when there is no other sound around but just a birds chirping, insects buzzing and a lonely tractor somewhere far away. I was standing in front of the house admiring the view, with Bela by my side - it was one of those strange moments when I was perfectly aware this is happiness - very rarely I live in a moment but that time I recognised the beauty of it. It was perfect, tranquil and peaceful, just me and a dog full of love standing next to me. She can never be replaced, because she was unique soul like all of us. I am still grieving and it created a scar on my heart. 

In memoriam: Branko Blaće

This blog is turning into one long list of obituaries but that's life - my heroes are slowly leaving this planet. Recently I have found out that Branko Blaće had passed away and it was sad news as he was one of my all-time childhood favourites, in fact the generations have grown with brilliant recording of our very own rock-opera "Gubec beg" where tall, strong and handsome baritone Blaće performed the title role. Croatians are always very quick to admire everything imported and usually don't appreciate homegrown talent, but this was genuinely a historic moment, where we had our very own rock-opera (one amongst the very first in the world, next to 1969. "Tommy" and 1970. "Jesus Christ Superstar") and it was a huge success at home and at the foreign stages. It was welcomed with standing ovations in Italy, Hungary and Soviet Union while at home the performances were sold out. 

"Gubec beg" was based on a historical novel “Seljačka buna” (by August Šenoa) and it was planned as anniversary of famous village uprising against local feudal nobility who treated them as slaves (we were not the only ones, apparently these village rebellions had happen all over the continent). The leader remembered as Matija Gubec was eventually brutally executed along with his helpers but the episode was remembered as a part of national consciousness and after centuries still echoes with a message about human spirit that won't accept injustice. At the time of its premiere, it was quite a spectacle rare on our local stages (they had huge folk chorus Ladarice and karate fighters amongst the cast) while media buzzed is it acceptable that pop singers like Branko Blaće or Josipa Lisac were invited in the theatre. 

After Gubec, Branko Blaće continued to perform in the musicals - I had seen him in another historical rock-opera that was also inspired by the famous book ("Grička vještica") and in fact cherished that recording as well. Later he played in local versions of "Les Miserables" but never seriously pursued solo career as a pop singer - there are literary only a handful of singles and some festival performances left behind him, it looks as he never cared much for that and was focused on a teaching work. I have actually met him completely by accident as a young man, when I worked as a journalist - invited into a home of a famous Croatian pop singer who lived in a fancy, northern part of town, she told me not to worry, her neighbour will pick me up - this neighbour turned out to be Branko Blaće and my head almost exploded from excitement, I still can't believe that it was Gubec beg himself that gave me the lift. I think I said something stupid like "You were Gubec beg!" and he laughed at me being so thrilled. 

"Gospel Truth" by Russell Shorto (1997)

 

Normally, I love Russel Shorto. I have read with the greatest pleasure both of his books about Amsterdam and New York. And this particular subject - possibility of historical identity of Jesus Christ - has long been one of my all-time favourite subjects. So why then, you might ask, has this been such a joyless task instead of exciting read? It took me forever to finish it and it became one of those books that i am reading just to finish what I started. At first I thought it was because I frankly read too many books about this, starting with 1903. "Did Jesus Live 100 BC? " trough excellent 1965. "The Passover plot" and more recent books by Lee Strobel, Bart D. Ehrman, Bill O'Reilly and Ian Wilson, capping it all with brilliant "Zealot: The Life and Times of Jesus of Nazareth' by Reza Aslan - I honestly thought maybe its just a case of overkill and I had read too much about it, but actually what struck me this morning is something else.

For such a controversial subject, Russell Shorto is simply too reverent for his own good. If you are playing with fire, if you dare to poke in a hornet's nest, than do it properly or don't do it at all. Where other authors before and after him, dared to bring something new, something provocative or simply stir controversies by considering fresh alternatives, Shorto goes on trough what was already being mentioned many times elsewhere but he is never going to upset anybody with new claims or new ideas. My personal feeling was that he did not dare to go any further (for whatever reason) and somehow got sidetracked by modern day Christian circles, televangelists and whatnot - I take brave works by other authors like Hugh Schonfield or Richard Dawkings anytime instead of this bland camomile tea. 

"Indiana Jones and the Dial of Destiny" by James Mangold (2023)

 

There are not many things that still bring me pleasure like in previous times - blame it on a completely natural process of ageing, but at this point I am aware that clock is ticking and everything is just about being comfortable, not about the excitement anymore. However, the news about upcoming Indiana Jones movie got me all excited - this was THE cinematic superhero of my youth and I can never forget the thrill of watching "Raiders of the Lost Ark" for the first time (and many times afterwards) - in order to mentally prepare for this, I have spent a whole week re-watching all of the Indiana Jones movies in order just to make sure I know who is who. Guess what, I still love "Raiders of the Lost Ark" the best - every subsequent sequel had better production, bigger budget and more explosions and somehow less heart. 

On to a latest (and hopefully, the last) Indiana Jones movie - out of a sheer affection, I decided it will be in a lovely old (and recently renovated) cinema "The Movies" that proudly stands here since 1912. and when facing a closure, locals from the neighbourhood pulled cash to save & renovate it. It is such a special place that I feel compelled to always visit and support it. It is decorated in a classic Art Deco style and at this point everything is so new that it smells on carpets and glue - audience is also very lovely, real film lovers and not silly teenagers who usually prefer huge cinemas. There is a certain magic and charm about small places. 

What can I say - I am much older now, I am not a teenager anymore and this type of stuff is not even entertaining to me. It appears the merchandise is out of Spielberg & Lucas hands, Walt Disney Pictures and Lucasfilm Ltd. pulling the strings, investing the money and pushing the promotion. I am honestly surprised that Harrison Ford even accepted this. Maybe he though it would be a perfect closure. In any case, there was a first part of the movie (call it an introduction) set in a WW2 where Indiana was digitally de-aged to look younger - this was actually done very well and you would never know the difference - this part actually feels like a classic Indiana Jones adventure. Everything that comes after that is unfortunately a never-ending action and run from one crowded place to another, so much that we never have a chance to actually care of these characters. The worst of all, the movie is too long - at 2,30 hours it feels seriously tiresome and when it all ended, the audience in a cinema felt not excitement but a relief. 

Harrison Ford is not to blame - at the age of 80 he is still reasonably fit elderly gentleman and he does everything to keep this mammoth afloat but the story itself is silly (or perhaps it always has been?) while his supporting cast is just not so engaging. Instead of his son and wife (who were important characters in 2008."Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull" now we have British actress Phoebe Waller-Bridge as his goddaughter. She is a cunning daughter of a scientist introduced in WW2 scenes and for the most of the movie we are not completely sure is she antagonist or a hero - when she eventually switches over to Indiana's side, its already a bit too late, we can't take her seriously as a goodie because she was baddie for too long. There is an obligatory child sidekick (this time a young Moroccan), almost unrecognisable Antonio Banderas in a very short, cameo appearance and a Danish actor Mads Mikkelsen as the main Nazi enemy. My conclusion is - "Raiders of the Lost Ark" is still by far the best Indiana Jones movie and every subsequent sequel had bigger budget but less heart. Piling action scenes and car races trough the crowded streets of exotic locations does not necessarily bring anything new. It could be that I simply can't accept what is basically a cartoon-based pulp fiction adventure movie anymore the same way I did when I was twelve. But such a huge budgeted spectacle will not appeal to young kids who are not connected with 1981 classic and the elderly audience will probably feel exhausted as me.